The Longest Goodbye

How do you feel about goodbyes?

Honestly, I have some mixed feelings about them. Sure, most of the time goodbyes are somewhat easy, everyday occurrences that pretty much go unnoticed.

But sometimes, goodbye is the last thing we want to say to somebody when time pours through the hourglass and all we want is for time to take several steps backwards.

Then, there are the times we don’t even get the chance to say goodbye. Those are some of the most heart wrenching times and it seems almost impossible to step over the regrets of not being there.

Yesterday, I was reading some new blog posts when a photograph caught my eye. It was a close up of someone holding hands. Then, I saw the name.

It was written by one of my dear blogging friends who has spent the past year on a difficult journey. As I read it, my cheeks were wet with tears.

I cried not only for the sadness of fate that seemed to go the wrong way, but also some joy tears were mixed in.

Here’s what I love about families, they stick it out, even if bad news is involved and heartache lingers.

I also love how her mum is triumphant! She survived brain surgeries and a tumor. What a miracle in that alone.

As soon as I read her account of life with her beautiful mum, I knew I wanted to share it with you.

Love and hugs, Miriam.

Out an' About

On this, my 100th post, I’m baring my soul.  This time last year my mum went into hospital for what should have been a straight forward operation to remove a tumor on her brain.  Although the operation went well complications arose during her recovery.  She ended up back in hospital and contracted an infection.  To cut a long and painful story short the infection and two major surgeries changed her forever.

From the operation to today I’ve seen her suffer and decline, from a strong fit independent woman living on her own, who taught me so much, to one needing 24/7 care.  She can no longer walk or talk or feed herself, though we think she has moments of lucidity and understanding.  Which makes it all the more heartbreaking.

She’s now in a facility not far away from where we live and she’s well cared for.  I visit her as…

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I Love Today

What have you been doing today? 

It seems that something quite magical happened overnight last night. Our recent weather has dropped the temperatures so low, that it looks like it snowed the past few mornings. 

When Little Bit and I walked outside this morning, our yard was practically a radiant yellow! 

Suddenly, his sweet little lips belted out a gleeful, “dandelions!” They are e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e. It is almost like they were born overnight, because they weren’t there yesterday! I can’t tell you how excited we were to see them! 

Granted, most folks considered dandelions weeds, but I have a hard time with that.

I mean, who remembers the childhood game of seeing if you liked butter by rubbing those flowers on your chin? And, just look at those yellow petals. 

To me, dandelions are small pieces of spring and childhood all rolled up into one sweet bloom. 

After I snapped a few pictures of them, we decided to take the back roads to town. We live in such a beautiful and soulful area. In fact, a look out of each window in our home reveals a wonderful natural scene. 

As we started on our journey towards town, we passed the country cemetery that we love. In winter’s past, we’ve stood there looking to see if the eagles were in the nearby trees. 

I love its smallness and the sense of peace there. I always find myself wondering about those families and if they lived around here all those years ago. 

Further down the road we spotted the first box turtle we’ve seen this spring. He was kind enough to grace us with a picture, although he stuck his head back inside his shell. 

Next, we came to the swimming hole. You see, the river is within a mile from us. I can’t even begin to tell you how much time we’ve spent there the past seven years, swimming, playing, and fishing.

We sat on the bridge, just listening to the water sing its song. There’s such a relaxing tone as it ripples over the rocks. 

Then, we were off to town and got our errands done. Once we were back home, a nice rain shower moved in and  pitter-pattered against the deck. 

The sun is showing its shy side now as grayness has settled in. The buds on the trees seem to be dancing in the breeze and our wind chimes are jingling about. 

Oh, what a spring-filled Wednesday its been! And, I just wanted to tell you how much I love today!