The Miracle in Momma 

Miracle Mommas,

If there is a miracle kiddo in your life, feel free to pull up a seat, you’re welcome here~

My journey into miracles started with a dream about what I thought motherhood would look like for me.

Picture a tiny white house, five kids running amuck , a barking dog, an old station wagon with fishing poles sticking out every window and me driving the whole crew to the creek some scorching August day.

Ok, now scratch that. That dream came to a screeching halt when  I-N-F-E-R-T-I-L-I-T-Y came sneaking in month after month. Woo hoo pregnancy symptoms. Rats, a negative test result. Four weeks later, repeat. That, sprinkled with a few positive tests results that ended in losses, ruled our life for five looooooong years.

Yikes. It was tough.

But, this story has a happy ending. Finally, I was able to get and stay pregnant. 

You’ve never seen a happier pregnant person than me.

  • I was thrilled to have morning sickness! How weird is that?
  • I also cried when I turned seven months pregnant because it was getting close to nine months and I didn’t want it to end.
  • Even with swelling, bedrest, and some health scares, I was just soooo happy to be pregnant.

The day he was born, he graced this world nearly a month early. His birth went down in history as the greatest present ever because he was born on my birthday.

Ten years have passed and my Little Bit is and has been an absolute light in my life. Sometimes I still have to pinch myself to make sure it really happened, that I am a mom.

Is it the first dream I had in mind? No. Is it way better? Heck yeah.

It seems like sometimes what we want isn’t actually what we may need. Sure, those imaginary five kids and station wagon may have been nice, but that dream is no comparison to this blonde haired, blue eyed dream I got.

I am soooooo blessed that HE came true and I just wanted to tell you that he definitely puts the miracle in Momma. 

33 thoughts on “The Miracle in Momma 

    • Oh goodness, you are very welcome. 💜🦋 I’ve been awake since 3 am. Couldn’t sleep, so I started writing.

      I have some things I’ve been wanting to write about but the words get all knotted up and I can’t quite find my place.

      I am taking an 8 week Spiritual type course and it’s really helping me open my eyes and my heart. I’m hoping when the time is right, our journeys will unfold in a beautifully wonderful way and be able to help a momma or two.

      Your comment means SO much. 💜🦋❤️

      • I fell pregnant very easily with my older son, Jessica, but I really struggled with my second. I also had miscarriages before I got this little sunshine boy and, even though he has chronic health issues, I love him to pieces and thank God for both my boys every day.

        • Oh my gosh, you can totally relate. Miscarriages are so hard. I am sooooo happy to hear about your little sunshine boy and your other boy. I didn’t know you had two. I didn’t know he had chronic health issues. It really makes a difference, doesn’t it? The loss seems to cement in the gratitude. I remember when my boy was born, I promised myself I would never take being a mom for granted. Infertility was rough, but it really did make me grateful. My little one has some health issues as well. We have been on a journey that I am just now hoping to find the grace to share. Thus the category “Miracle Mommas.” I am feeling a nudge to share some things and maybe it will help out a mom on a similar journey. Thank you for telling me about your beautiful boys. I know what you mean about thanking God for such a gift.

    • Hey girl, thank you so much. It is wonderful to look back now at that part of our journey. Ten years in and I still feel the exact same way as I did then. I love what you said- the miracle of motherhood. It truly is. Thank you for reading. I appreciate it so much.

  1. Hello Jessica.
    A truly beautiful post, straight from the heart.
    I was with you on your journey as you told us of the times your hope was high but then fell low again as test after test showed a negative result. And I know that feeling of not wanting to give up the baby you have growing inside because, while he/she’s there, you can keep them safe.

    I have my own history of pregnancy problems, a little different from yours, so I know only too well how incredible it is when eventually things go right and you’re finally sat with your baby in your arms.

    I can remember calling my mother day in, day out, when I finally came home with Daughter No.1, saying that I couldn’t believe I’d finally got this tiny baby and that I was so thankful for this mind blowing blessing which had been given to me.

    Such a wonderful post Jessica. Thank you so much for sharing your journey into Motherhood with us.
    I’m unbelievably thankful that you were blessed with your beautiful son.
    Sending love ~ Cobs. x

    • Oh my goodness, look at us having the same sort of connection. There is nothing like holding your very own baby. My sweet husband had never held a baby until it was his. Isn’t that the sweetest? Thank you for telling me you were with me in my writing. That means a lot to me.

      I would’ve loved to have been on the line when you called your mother day in day out about your baby blessing. How joyous that must have been for both of you.

      Thank you, as always, for being such a supporter of my writing. You kind words really do mean so much to me. My dear, sweet pen pal.
      Big hugs to you, my friend. Jessica

  2. Beautiful post! Being a momma was all I ever wanted to be!! I thank God everyday for my 1 precious baby. Being pregnant and raising him was my favorite part of my like. Then came grandkids. WoW.
    God Is Good

    • Hey sweetie, I am sooooo glad you read this. Thank you for that. Today we celebrated his “month” birthday. Today he turned 10.9. 10 years, 9 months old.

      Ever since he was little I’ve made a paper sign and take his picture with it every month on the day of his birthday month that he was born. So like in June, it was 10.6. 10 years, six months. It’s just been a fun way to savor the months and days. ❤️His official birthday is still 3 months. Goes soooooo quick. Kiss those little twins for me.

    • Oh my goodness, when I saw your name, I smiled. What an amazing blog name. ❤️ I understand what you mean about having a little one. I always tell mine “you’re the best thing that ever happened to your own momma” and I mean it! ❤️Thank you so much for commenting.

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