Letting Go

For the past eight weeks I’ve been on a journey, a spiritual healing journey.

While on vacation in August, I stood in the ocean and felt a peace wash over me. It was like the ocean crawled right into my head and said, “There, there. Now don’t you worry.” From that point on, things have snowballed.

As soon as we got home, I saw there was a  video about an upcoming transformation class for moms. The reviews said wonderful things about improved marriages and improved family relationships.

During the introductory video, I wept. Then, the gal mentioned that the class would be like a dolphin pod. We had just seen dolphins next to our boat while on the island.

Pre-vacation, I was spending countless hours every day for months searching for medical answers for me and my family. My poor mind was completely bogged down in soooooooo much worry that Fear set up residence.

Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever been so stuck in the internal dialogue of what if’s and nevers, that it’s almost easy to live there?

Eeks. What an exhausting place to be.

Well, I went back and forth on whether to take the class or not:

  • We don’t really have the extra money
  • PayPal? I don’t have PayPal! Is it safe? Surely, it’s not safe.
  • I don’t have time. I’m too busy fixing everything and everyone.
  • There’s no time. I’m researching.
  • Could we swing it? Oh Lord no! I can’t spend that on myself.
  • 3 days a week for 8 weeks? Plus stuff on the other days???

Every excuse there ever was, popped up. I actually thought about not doing it. I came  really close to not signing up, but then I did.

OMG, you guys! Best. Decision. Ever.

I never thought my life could be transformed in 56 days, but I am telling you, it changed.

It took some serious uncrusting of limited beliefs, some days of digging around in the past, resurrecting some heartbreaking memories, and even analyzing old thought patterns. Ugh. But, the beauty of all that digging brought me an immense sense of freedom and peace.

During Abundance week, I had some huge revelations. Turns out that Abundance is different than what I thought it was. Instead of being an accumulation of a, b, and c, it’s actually a free flowing energy source.

Think about that for a second. Abundance has the power to constantly come into our lives if there’s nothing blocking it.

What blocks it? Well apparently all the things I’ve been carrying around. Grudges, old heartaches, being mad at somebody, painful memories, and such. All those things I thought were over and done with that have resurfaced over the past twenty some years.

So, for several weeks, I have been looking forgiveness straight in the eye. I even revisited a few years from my early 20’s that were extremely difficult for me.

It turns out a story I had been carrying around all these years had another factor I wasn’t aware of. I was finally graced with the truth and in the days that followed, my tears just ran.

The tears have been absolutely freeing for me and they have fallen. My teacher mentioned life being like an onion and what a great analogy that really is. Seems like we all have layers of life experiences that make up who we are.

But, it doesn’t stop there. If Abundance is flowing, we have an unlimited potential of being absolutely anything.

With that said, it leads me back to where I started eight weeks ago when the class began. My goal for the class was simple and easy to remember. It fit me to a T and was exactly what I needed to do.

Here’s to letting go. 

47 thoughts on “Letting Go

  1. rabbitpatchdiary.com October 11, 2017 / 6:54 pm

    oh my sweet girl-I am so happy for you. It amazes me that I find unsettled things in myself too-from decades ago, that I would have sworn were long over. This has just happened again, for me! Oh but the release is liberating. I love you and wish you the best and I love the abundance theory.

    • Jessica October 11, 2017 / 7:12 pm

      Oooh I’m sooo happy to hear from you! Darn, if we were neighbors, we could’ve been doing this together. But, I suppose it really is an inward journey. I love you, too. I am lifting you up high as you heal from whatever resurfaced. Hugs, my sweet, sweet girl.

        • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 9:19 pm

          Oh my gosh, I can hardly believe that… :) Hugs, honey. And, big kisses on the cheek.

          • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:26 pm

            Thank YOU for supporting me all the time with no questions asked.

          • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 5:36 pm

            Ohhhhh goodness ❤️❤️❤️

  2. SpiritualJourney17 October 11, 2017 / 7:20 pm

    So happy to hear that you’re releasing fears, past baggage, etc. It’s definitely freeing.

    • Jessica October 11, 2017 / 7:28 pm

      Hi! Soooo great to hear from you. Thank you. It’s amazing to dump all that baggage. It didn’t realize how much it was weighing me down until I let it go. Thank you for reading. That means a lot to me! 💕

  3. thechickengrandma October 11, 2017 / 9:05 pm

    Letting go of stuff we were never meant to drag around is absolutely one of the great things in life! Good for you!

    • Jessica October 11, 2017 / 10:47 pm

      Yes ma’am. Crazy how we tend to pick up all this “stuff” and forget to set it down. Thank you for reading. I’ve sure missed you. Kiss that baby for me.

  4. jdraymaine October 12, 2017 / 2:57 am

    The incredible strength of the human spirit is in all of us. The secret is learning to open the faucet to let it run freely.

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 8:43 pm

      Hi there. What a profound comment. Thank you so much. Strength was one of our lessons as well, and it seems like sometimes it is easy to forget our strength wells run really deep. If only we can remember to access all those lessons and draw from them. Love what you said about the faucet. I have felt like one recently. Ha. Thank you for reading. I appreciate that.

      • jdraymaine October 13, 2017 / 1:43 am

        Anytime sis!

  5. Elena October 12, 2017 / 6:03 am

    Very inspiring text!

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 10:11 am

      Hi there. Thank you so very much. ❤️

  6. thecobweboriumemporium October 12, 2017 / 6:59 am

    Wishing only the best things for you Jessica. May your life be easier, may your mind be open, and my your heart be free.
    Sending you love, and praying that your ‘freedom’ from what has been holding you in one place continue through your life, forever.
    ~ Cobs. x 🌻

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 8:49 pm

      You always have the words that sooth my soul. Thank you. I have missed you. How are things going your way?

      Oh girl, it’s been freeing for sure. I don’t think I have ever cried more in my life. Let it run. Years ago, I went through a situation that ended rather abruptly and I’ve spent all these years thinking I was easily forgotten. Found out I wasn’t forgotten at all. Monumental moments. Love you and big hugs from an ocean away. :)

  7. Miriam October 12, 2017 / 7:34 am

    So wonderful Jessica and I’m so happy for you. Seems we’ve both been on a very similar journey and path in life. Like you, the past six weeks for me has been all about letting go, of old beliefs, self doubts and fears. Its amazing the changes I feel inside and all the “signs’ I’ve seen (even from mum) now that my eyes are open again. It’s liberating when we feel the abundance and know that we’re supported in the Universe. And it’s amazing when we understand that these changes come from inside us and that we’re the creators of our own destiny. So, so happy for you my darling girl xo

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 8:54 pm

      OMG Miri!!!!! We are soul sisters. I cannot believe you have going through similar things an ocean away. Yes, yes, and yes to everything you said. My eyes are open once again and I am listening to my intuition that has been ignored way too much. I am soooo thrilled for you that you are getting signs from your beautiful mum. Oh how I miss her. She is the reason we became friends. The Universe and Abundance are like square dance partners– they keep things going round and round. I am sooo happy to hear from you. Love you, honey. I am in another class now. A 7 week Mother’s Intuition class that started yesterday. Can’t wait to see what I learn.

      • Miriam October 13, 2017 / 12:47 am

        Oh yes, we might be oceans away Jess but it seems that our connection is still very deep. I’m so glad you’re listening to your intuition, just as I am, going with the flow and trusting in the process. Yes, mum brought us together and will keep us there I feel. Enjoy your new class my dear, exciting and fulfilling times ahead for both of us. xo

        • Jessica October 13, 2017 / 5:19 am

          I love you, Miri. I feel a new connection between us. 💕💗

          • Miriam October 13, 2017 / 5:33 am

            Me too Jess. I don’t think the connection ever really went away. We’ve both been searching and we’re once more aligned. 💕💖

          • Jessica October 13, 2017 / 8:50 am

            Yes ma’am. Aligned is the perfect word. I always knew you were destined to finding your purpose and being something absolutely extraordinary, but I had no clue that’d I’d be on a similar journey at the exact same time. 🦋🦋

          • Miriam October 13, 2017 / 2:39 pm

            And isn’t it just so so wonderful? 💕

          • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:24 pm

            Yes ma’am, soul sister.

  8. thejuicenut October 12, 2017 / 8:57 am

    Good for you 👏🏻 I too went on a journey in my 50s, I read Simple Abundance by Sara Ban Breathnach and I did The Journey by Brandon Bays. As you say, so very powerful and I too found that I saw my story from a different perspective and what I had believed to be the case was in fact the opposite. I too let go of a lot of hurtful baggage, spiritually confronted those responsible and let the tears flow. It was and continues to be such a healing experience. I also did The Artist’s Way. So pleased for you 💜

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 9:06 pm

      Hey friend, I am sooooo glad you read this. That means a lot to me. I love what you said about seeing your story from a different perspective and what you had believed was the opposite. Isn’t that crazy???? I thought one thing for nearly 30 years, then found out 10 days ago, I didn’t know one huge fact. Just that alone, brought more healing than I can even express. I spent years down the dungeons of “not good enough” and had so many struggles. Now to find out I did actually matter is unbelievably healing.

      I haven’t heard of Simple Abundance, The Journey, or the Artist’s Way. I will definitely be looking into them. Right now, I am in another class that started yesterday. It’s on Mother’s Intuition and lasts 7 weeks. I can’t wait to see what I learn. Then, there is another course in December. Hope you are doing well and have a wonderful day!

      • thejuicenut October 13, 2017 / 11:24 am

        You are very busy, glad it’s paying off 💜

        • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:22 pm

          Busy learning. :) Hope you are doing well. I need to catch up reading your blog. I am certain I have missed some great insight and recipes.

          • thejuicenut October 14, 2017 / 7:00 pm

            You might like my Monday Meditation posts 💜

          • Jessica October 15, 2017 / 5:06 am

            Ooooo! Can’t wait. 💕

  9. Ann Coleman October 12, 2017 / 4:55 pm

    I’m so happy for your! Letting go is hard, but once you manage to do it, life become so much better. More importantly, you find the freedom to be your true self!

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 9:11 pm

      Hi, I have missed chatting with you. Love what you said about the freedom to be your true self. At the core of the class is unconditional love for self. Lots of stuff has the ability to get in the way of loving and accepting ourselves at times, but really, it is the essence of everything. You are right, letting go is hard. Seems like it’s been engrained in my thinking so long that I need to carry those bags of junk around forever. No more, thank goodness. The amazing thing is, since I have let things go, my husband and kiddo are happier and all my work I did was internal. But, still they noticed. Love that. Hope you are well. How’s your dog?

  10. Tamara Hoerner October 12, 2017 / 5:58 pm

    We’ve missed you. I’m so happy for you. Here’s to LETTING GO! 🤗 🙏

    • Jessica October 12, 2017 / 9:15 pm

      You are such a sweetheart. I have missed you immensely. You are always kind to me and are willing to chit chat. Thank you so much for reading this. It took a while for it to come together. Words tangled up for a while. Then, I just sort of tuned into what I would want to read and it fell out. LOVE that. I have missed seeing your posts. Hope you are happy and healthy. I will try to get caught up reading soon. Hugs, ,my friend.

  11. robbiesinspiration October 12, 2017 / 11:26 pm

    Hi Jessica, how lovely to see this amazing post from you. Sounds like you have been on an intense spiritual journey and that it has done wonders for you. I am so happy! Hugs.

    • Jessica October 13, 2017 / 5:24 am

      Hey sweet girl, I’m sooooo happy to see your name. Thank you so much for reading. Intense is a wonderful word for it. Can’t even get words around everything I learned yet. ❤️ Thank you for your comments. They mean so much! Hope you’re doing well.

      • robbiesinspiration October 13, 2017 / 1:57 pm

        Thank you, Jessica. I am doing well and I hope to read more about what you have learned.

        • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:23 pm

          Oh, I am so glad you are well. Time is passing so quickly. Here it is, mid- October already. I hope to get caught up with your writing soon. Have a lovely day.

        • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:25 pm

          I do intend on writing more and hope that it pours out in lovely chunks. :) Thank you for prompting me to write more. That is very kind.

  12. Mrs Strawberry Blonde October 14, 2017 / 8:07 am

    Oh wow!
    I’m glad you managed to let go of your baggage.

    I think it’s great that you did this for yourself. You have such a big heart, a heart of gold, and you’d go to the end of the world and back for other people – so it was about time you did something for yourself too.

    Sending you big hugs across the pond!

    • Jessica October 14, 2017 / 12:29 pm

      Awww!! That made me miss you more than I already do!! Thank you sooooo much for saying that. It’s definitely been a different sort of adventure for me- doing deep healing spiritual work for myself. I never thought I had time or needed it. Wrong!! :)

  13. watchingthedaisies October 21, 2017 / 2:42 pm

    I am sorry I missed reading this earlier. It sounds like your life is really opening up. I loved reading this and look forward to an update 🌼

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