Letting Go

For the past eight weeks I’ve been on a journey, a spiritual healing journey.

While on vacation in August, I stood in the ocean and felt a peace wash over me. It was like the ocean crawled right into my head and said, “There, there. Now don’t you worry.” From that point on, things have snowballed.

As soon as we got home, I saw there video about an upcoming transformation class for moms. The reviews said wonderful things about improved marriages and improved family relationships. 

During the introductory video, I wept. Then, the gal mentioned that the class would be like a dolphin pod. We had just seen dolphins next to our boat while on the island.

Pre-vacation, I was spending countless hours every day for months searching for medical answers for me and my family. My poor mind was completely bogged down in soooooooo much worry that Fear set up residence.  

Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever been so stuck in the internal dialogue of what if’s and nevers, that it’s almost easy to live there?

Eeks. What an exhausting place to be. 

Well, I went back and forth on whether to take the class or not: 

  • We don’t really have the extra money 
  • PayPal? I don’t have PayPal! Is it safe? Surely, it’s not safe.
  • I don’t have time. I’m too busy fixing everything and everyone.
  • There’s no time. I’m researching.
  • Could we swing it? Oh Lord no! I can’t spend that on myself. 
  • 3 days a week for 8 weeks? Plus stuff on the other days???

Every excuse there ever was, popped up. I actually thought about not doing it. I came  really close to not signing up, but then I did. 

OMG, you guys! Best. Decision. Ever. 

I never thought my life could be transformed in 56 days, but I am telling you, it changed. 

It took some serious uncrusting of limited beliefs, some days of digging around in the past, resurrecting some heartbreaking memories, and even analyzing old thought patterns. Ugh. But, the beauty of all that digging brought me an immense sense of freedom and peace. 

During Abundance week, I had some huge revelations. Turns out that Abundance is different than what I thought it was. Instead of being an accumulation of a, b, and c, it’s actually a free flowing energy source. 

Think about that for a second. Abundance has the power to constantly come into our lives if there’s nothing blocking it. 

What blocks it? Well apparently all the things I’ve been carrying around. Grudges, old heartaches, being mad at somebody, painful memories, and such. All those things I thought were over and done with that have resurfaced over the past twenty some years. 

So, for several weeks, I have been looking forgiveness straight in the eye. I even revisited a few years from my early 20’s that were extremely difficult for me. 

It turns out a story I had been carrying around all these years had another factor I wasn’t aware of. I was finally graced with the truth and in the days that followed, my tears just ran.

The tears have been absolutely freeing for me and they have fallen. My teacher mentioned life being like an onion and what a great analogy that really is. Seems like we all have layers of life experiences that make up who we are. 

But, it doesn’t stop there. If Abundance is flowing, we have an unlimited potential of being absolutely anything. 

With that said, it leads me back to where I started eight weeks ago when the class began. My goal for the class was simple and easy to remember. It fit me to a T and was exactly what I needed to do. 

Here’s to letting go. 

Love is Everywhere 

Recently, my husband, Little Bit, and I ventured onto a crooked old country road to a creek that we’ve been to several times. 

This place is far from any towns and I’d guess that it gets a little bit of local traffic, but probably doesn’t see too many folks on any regular day. 

It’s spring-fed and rock bottomed, so you can literally see the fish swimming, leaves immersed, and even the moss that grows underwater. 

My husband waded out about knee deep and was standing about midstream when he reached down for something, tossed it my way and told me I would like it. 

He was right. 

I about fell over when I saw it. Talk about an affirmation! Indeed, love IS everywhere! ❤️


The Wind and the Waves

Have you ever just needed a vacation? Just a break to step away from the every day? 

Yeah, me too. 

The past several months I haven’t been writing much. I’ve been reading and researching health issues. Sure, it’s great to learn about all that stuff, but after a while, it flat gets heavy! 

Our vacation came at the perfect time because walking away from researching was exactly what I needed. 

Quite honestly, I’ve had a ton on my mind and realized I’d almost taken up residence in Fear. Like it’s a town with an area code or something. Fear of what? 

  • Fear of a mystery illness
  • Fear of finding the right doctor
  • Fear of following the right path
  • Fear of finding the right remedies
  • Fear that these headaches would never go away
  • Fear of being enough and doing enough
  • And, just the general fear that creeps in out of nowhere 

When we arrived at the beach, it was like the ocean opened its arms and called out, “you are safe here.” 

In those moments, my soul searching began. In all the muck that fear creates, it’s easy to lose ourselves. But, I actually began to see myself again and because of that, I was able to set down the worries I’d been carrying. 

That beach set me free. Standing in the sand, all senses completely submersed, I found the healing power of the wind and water. After eleven days, I returned home stronger and less afraid. 

Since then, I feel more at peace about my health. Believe it or not, the right doctor did come along. So did some answers. Not all, but some and that’s a start I’ll take. 

I just thought I’d tell you where I’ve been for so long. On a healing path, I guess, that started with the wind and the waves. 

Childhood Summer

I’m a small town girl raising a small town boy and you will never know how much that means to me.

I grew up in a big house on a corner block in a tiny farm town. Little Bit is growing up in a big house in the country near a tiny farm town on the opposite end of the state.

This week I was reminded of why I love where we live. Two days before the 4th of July parade, I asked Little Bit if he wanted to go to the parade. He told me he wanted to be in the parade.

What?!?!?

In??? Oh man… I started scrambling around  trying to figure out how I could pull that one off. I mean, the deadline for getting into the parade had already passed.

I got on Facebook and summoned my friends for help. Help came. Someone suggested calling the Chamber of Commerce, so I did.

When I explained our situation to a gal at the Chamber, I was met with nothing but kindness.  In fact, she told me she’d never turn down a 10 year old boy.

Talk about small town America at its best! I can’t even get words around her welcoming  gesture. She didn’t even know us!

At 9:45 am on July 4th, we got our place in line between a couple of floats. Little Bit made his parade debut riding his scooter next to other kiddos riding their bikes.

As we made our way through the streets towards our downtown square, I couldn’t help but feel a little nostalgic.

Families lined the streets to watch. It was pouring down rain but no one seemed to care. Kids were gathering candy. The high school band was marching and playing patriotic songs. Behind us was the Class of 1967.

Last October my husband took a job transfer and we were supposed to have moved by now.  And though I’m fine with moving, I’m really glad we’ve stayed put.

After all, the parade alone has given me some wonderful memories and I know one day I will look back and smile as I remember my boy’s 10th childhood summer. 

Blogging Friends

I appreciate all of my blogging friends so much! This morning I woke up to find that one of them nominated me for a fun blogging award. 

Thank you, Cobs, for including my blog among the 11 you chose! That’s so sweet of you. I love blog awards! What a fun way to get to know each other. 
Guidelines: 

  • Acknowledge the blog that nominated you and display the award.
  • Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you. 
  • Give 11 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 11 blogs. 
  • Notify those blogs of the nomination. 
  • Give them 11 questions to answer. 

Cob’s questions:

  1. Is there one thing you’ve always wanted to do but still haven’t done it? Yes, publish a book. 
  2. What is your guilty pleasure? Dairy free coconut milk “ice cream” bars. 
  3. Who would be your dream dinner date? My husband. He works out of town 4 nights a week. 
  4. Do you have a favorite film? The Bridges of Madison County
  5. Do you have a favorite tv program? The Voice
  6. If you were given a badge that said ‘In Charge of the World but for only 60 seconds’ what law would you pass or what change would you make in that 60 seconds? I would make every single day “Be Kind Day.”
  7. You found an oriental looking, corked bottle on the beach. You uncork it and out pops a Genie. He/She grants you three wishes. Tell me your three wishes: 1. It would snow so I can learn to snowboard. 2. That our lake property would sell. 3. That I could cross the ocean and meet all my ocean-away friends. 
  8. What drew you into the blogging world? A hospital stay and being told I had some horrible disease- prompted me to stop waiting. 
  9. Which do you prefer, writing and posting blog posts or reading other people’s blog posts? It’s a tie! I love both. 
  10. You’re invited to a posh dinner this evening. What are you hoping will be served as your Starter? Crab legs 
  11. What is the one thing above any other, which you cannot eat, not even if someone offered you a thousand pounds/dollars just to eat a small piece  of it? Liver!! 

11 Random Facts about me… I love: 

  • Wildflowers
  • Iowa
  • That my great aunt is 98
  • Little Bit
  • Bubbles 
  • Our little blue plastic swimming pool
  • Vintage furniture
  • Summer
  • Rainbows
  • Country roads
  • My parents 

I nominate:

  1. Ladies Who Lunch Reviews
  2. Rabbit Patch Diary
  3. The Purple Almond
  4. Weird Guy With The Dog
  5. Cooking Without Limits
  6. Restless Jo
  7. The Wilden Marsh
  8. Vintage Cookbook Shelf
  9. Joshi Daniel
  10. The Apples in My Orchard
  11. One Creative Family
  12. I’m doing 12- ha! Farm Life Best Life

My questions :

    1. Light or dark chocolate?
    2. Sunrise or sunset?
    3. City streets or country roads? 
    4. Homemade casserole or 5 course meal? 
    5. A dozen roses or an armful of wildflowers? 
    6. Favorite color?
    7. Most loved season? 
    8. Cream pie or fruit pie? 
    9. Favorite song? 
    10. Swim in a creek or swim in a pool? 
    11. What’s one kind thing someone has done for you? 

      *** If you have an award free blog, feel free  to skip this or to comment here if you like.